Man don't we all need some crazy faith? As the world gets back to a sort of "normal" the dependence on hope or faith might start diminishing, but the majority of us I'm sure will still say, tomorrow's state is uncertain. It's crazy how much we take for granted. Even pre- pandemic. From time, to people, to things, none of it is indispensable is it? And this is scary, though my point isn't to highlight this fear, but to say that we can't run from the things that scare us. Uncertainty will always be there and the truth is we can't control everything, (most things!) but we can develop our faith in good and bad times.
Llewelyn reminds us that it isn't about what we can't do but we need to focus on what we can do, regardless of the circumstances. In my new book "Hope" I talk about my relationship with faith. I guess the point of it is to believe it before we see it come to pass, that's actually what faith is! Blind belief. Believing that the extraordinary is possible because, well, it is. Look at all the amazing people who came before us in history and did remarkable things.
We all have the ability to do extraordinary things, when we develop crazy faith.
Sometimes that remarkable is just being able to provide for your family. Sometimes it's inventing the next life changing gadget. Sometimes it's contributing part of our salary to a charitable cause. We all have the ability to do extraordinary things, when we develop crazy faith.
What if all the pain and sacrifice is not worth it in the end? What do I do then?
I think about those moments, where loved ones or even friends have probably wanted to tell me to stop. That look. The one which speaks louder than words. "Your crazy Ani," they want to stay, but they are worried it will hurt my feelings. "You're not going to achieve your dreams," is what so many people want you to think, and man that's truly hard to navigate around. If you have been an Artist your whole life, you don't know any different. You already are in constant battle with distracting yourself from the comparison trap and working on strengthening that self belief and self confidence, that you really don't have time to sit and worry about what others think. However there are thousands of moments where you do. You do worry. You look around and can't help but feel you may not make it. Whatever "make it" means to you. What if you don't? What if it doesn't happen and you fail? What if all the pain and sacrifice is not worth it in the end? What do I do then?
I am eternally grateful to have the crazy faith to know God is on my side. Even if I didn't know that for the longest time. Whenever I am doubting myself, something happens. Someone reminds me of my inner greatness. Someone offers me a smile, or a "thank you." Someone says something unexpected, acts in a generous way, offers me a compliment and even encourages me in the work I am doing. I never paid too much attention, thinking these were just scraps of momentary satisfaction, but now I see. I see that this isn't just a coincidence. If a dream was planted on my heart, and on your heart, it's there for a reason! If you have a specific talent, a passion that makes the whole rollercoaster of life worth living for you, you have to do it! You owe it to yourself to develop this crazy faith.
"But what if this isn't my purpose?" you ask. Well trust that whatever you are supposed to do, will happen. If you're questioning it, be open to possibilities of deviating from what you thought happiness was. Sometimes we really don't know what that is until life smacks us in the face with it. So give yourself a break! (Have a kit kat! sorry couldn't help myself)
If you have a specific talent, a passion that makes the whole rollercoaster of life worth living for you, you have to do it!
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